We must first be ready to change ourselves.

So, the last few months have been crazy. I am back at uni and into second semester already. I have been living in Gladstone for almost four months now, and am loving it here. I am finally starting to make friends and settle into my own groove. Josh and I are enjoying living together and actually, I kind of love having him all to myself and it being just us at home some nights. Things are starting to become so much less complicated.

At the moment, I am writing assessments, working and applying for jobs. I already have three part time jobs (Partylite, ACN and being a mystery shopper) but I would like something more permanent and possibly in the Marine Science/Environmental Science field. I am almost finished my degree... I am getting a little worried about what will happen next year. I want so much to do my honours, and then my PhD, but am I ready for it??

I am missing my friends from home, they are so far away and I can't wait to see my girls when I get back to Wollongong/Sydney. It's crazy, but I honestly miss Richmond and Penrith. I miss the 2 hour drive from my parents place to Windsor every weekend. There's so many little things that aren't the same, and it's sad to think they're not going to happen again for a long time.

Well, it's 2:20am and I have alot to get through in the next few hours before I get a couple of hours sleep, then go to pick up my cousin's girlfriend, back for another hour or two sleep, more assessment writing/uni work and then a one and a half hour drive to a job interview in Rockhampton.

Hope you are all well,
LBB

Yes, people of Deviant art, that is correct. In the coming two weeks I will be packing up my little black Barina and heading off on a new journey.. I'm moving to Gladstone, Queensland.

So, to break up what would be about 20 hours of driving, I will be stopping in Lismore, NSW, for a few days to undertake a residential for uni before continuing on my way to my final destination. So, with that in mind, please do not be alarmed if I am not on here for about a week or so, as I am under the opinion that my wonderful university has removed DA from their server - with the exception of the Arts students.

So, that's all for now
Littleblackbeetle

So, lately it ha been feeling like my life has been turning to shit. First, a friend passes away... Yes, another friend of mine has left this earth and everything is just bottling up inside and I can't even talk to my boyfriend about it because he's never here anymore, he works away and I have been missing him so much.

My Christmas/New Year was kind of whitewashed with a disastr of a camping trip. Josh and I went away camping with some "friends" and before we even left it was doomed. Firstly, one of these "friends" insulted my mother and was incredibly rude to both of my parents, who were kind enough to allow them to stay the night so they didn't have to travel so far. My parents were so offended that they just packed a bag and went to Sydney for the night, so they wouldn't have to be insulted in their own home. Then when we arrive at the camp site, this same person stated that she had invited her whole family camping, after making a scene when I asked if it were ok if I invited a friend.

To make matters worse, this same person began insulting me by stating that she and her husband had only been invtied to stay at my parents house to "rub her face in the fact that my parents have a nice house with a pool and a few nicer things". Mind you, my parents have worked hard for eveything they have and have received some of their "nicer" things as gifts frm my sister and I.

In the end, I couldn't handle her anymore and packed everything up and came home. Then when we got home, because I put a status on facebook stating that we were home early due to such a bad camping trip, she made comments stating that I had lied about everything and made things up to make her look bad. One thing I don't do is lie.

After all this, I just feel like shit all the time. I honestly feel like I am always doing things wrong and upsetting everyone around me and I don't know what else to do.

I do apologise for having spilt all this, I just needed to get it all out. I am cnstantly having this person state things about me and I just can't handle it anymore. I needed a space of my own to vent without repicussions.

Well, it's that time of year agian. The time when Christmas trees can be seen everywhere and everyone's wallets are gettig lighter by the second.

So, firstly, I would like to wish everyone a happy festive season whatever it is you may be celebrating. And, I hope you are all safe and well.

Secondly, I have started drawing again, as you can probably see from my latest submission. I have been practicing my marine animals in hopes to create something worthwhile in the coming months. I know it's been forever since I last updated anything, so I am hoping that going back to being a student will help with te creativity/inspiration.

So, I guess that's it for the time being, I don't really have much to write at the moment.
I promise to write a little more when I have some more time.

P.S. Seeing as I have almost finished reading every book I have ever owned, could someone please :begs: suggest something for me to read. I am getting desperate.

Stay Safe
LBB

I know, I hardly ever get on here anymore, with the exception of checking who's postig what and who has left messages or faved my work.
But, there is reasons why, I was working my butt off at work and coming home dog tired everyday, plus working a second job as a partylite candle consultant. Yes, that's right I sell candles. I'll add a little bit of info below if any of you are interested.

So, that is why I have been a little MIA of late.

Some exciting news from Partylite this month. Firstly, there's a new range of wonderful hostess and guest specials, which include the gorgeous range of tri-glow reed diffusers.
Partylite are also embracing the need for colour offering the Iced Trio (normally for $70.95) at a price of $42.95 and the Elegance Stemmed Votive Quintet for a low price of $86.95 (normally $129.95) with any purchase.

In addition to these great specials, Partylite is hosting a promotion for all hostesses who hold parties in October, November or December. Those hostesses who hold shows which total $550 or more in the three months mentioned, and then hold a second show of $550 or more in January will be eligible to receive a gift pack of their choosing valued to $200 or more.

Partylite also offers a great consultant program with profits of 22% or more going into consultants pockets from each show. Plus, a whole range a great monthly incentives. The best part about Partylite, is you can work your hours and you can work around your life and family needs.

So, if you are interested in taking advantage of these wonderful offers or just wanting more information, please do not hesitate in calling me on 0401 072 511.

Hope you are all doing well and loving your candles.

Charissa Allan
Independent Partylite Consultant
little_black_beetle@hotmail.com
0401 072 511