So, lately it ha been feeling like my life has been turning to shit. First, a friend passes away... Yes, another friend of mine has left this earth and everything is just bottling up inside and I can't even talk to my boyfriend about it because he's never here anymore, he works away and I have been missing him so much.

My Christmas/New Year was kind of whitewashed with a disastr of a camping trip. Josh and I went away camping with some "friends" and before we even left it was doomed. Firstly, one of these "friends" insulted my mother and was incredibly rude to both of my parents, who were kind enough to allow them to stay the night so they didn't have to travel so far. My parents were so offended that they just packed a bag and went to Sydney for the night, so they wouldn't have to be insulted in their own home. Then when we arrive at the camp site, this same person stated that she had invited her whole family camping, after making a scene when I asked if it were ok if I invited a friend.

To make matters worse, this same person began insulting me by stating that she and her husband had only been invtied to stay at my parents house to "rub her face in the fact that my parents have a nice house with a pool and a few nicer things". Mind you, my parents have worked hard for eveything they have and have received some of their "nicer" things as gifts frm my sister and I.

In the end, I couldn't handle her anymore and packed everything up and came home. Then when we got home, because I put a status on facebook stating that we were home early due to such a bad camping trip, she made comments stating that I had lied about everything and made things up to make her look bad. One thing I don't do is lie.

After all this, I just feel like shit all the time. I honestly feel like I am always doing things wrong and upsetting everyone around me and I don't know what else to do.

I do apologise for having spilt all this, I just needed to get it all out. I am cnstantly having this person state things about me and I just can't handle it anymore. I needed a space of my own to vent without repicussions.